Today it's exactly 5 years after the big GOOD BYE. There was a time when I thought that 5 years are a long time. Now it seems to me like a short period of time. Each time I'm in Prague I still recall my shootings with Lea and when I have time I go to the places where we shot our photos and video clips. My last visit in Prague was last month (November 2009). Of course I also went to the cemetery. Finally in the meantime there's at least a solid marble socket and it looks much nicer than before. Obviously I'm not the only one who goes there from time to time. I saw new flowers and different little devotional things.

Only a few days later, Marek F. from Poland has also been there. He sent me some photos for the gallery. You can see both sets (his photos and mine) under "galleries".

Finally I want to answer a question which I've received from a fan of Lea. He wrote me:

"Hi, I was about to watch DANGEROUS CURVES again today which is a film that Lea performed in. I didn't watch, torn between the thoughts it might be disresectful toward her and it may be something she wouldn't mind.

Just wondering if I could get your thoughts on this? Thanks"

To me it's very clear: Lea would never mind if you watch movies of her. She was kind of proud to be featured in so many movies. Sometimes she went into a videotheque just to rent a Lea-De-Mae movie! You have to know that pornstars don't necessarily get the movies they perform in!

Even in October 2004(!) when she was ill, she proudly showed me the DVD cover of a movie with her and Rocco, I guess. She had it at home and asked me if I knew this movie.

Once again: Lea De Mae really loved to show herself naked and to be admired. It was not her wish to leave us. She wanted to continue working in front of photo and video cameras. If we watch her movies we worship her and her free minded and open philosophy. Not to watch her movies anymore would be like killing her a second time.

That's not only my opinion. Olda Widman, her former manager, is watching her movies, too, from time to time. And I'm pretty sure that Daniela Rush thinks the same way. Daniela, who works as a doctor now, never makes a secret of her career as a pornstar. It's not something she's ashamed of. It's part of her life.

Let's keep this part of Lea's life alive!